let your tears come

Sadness doesn’t even start to describe what this past week has been like.



More tears.

Our hearts ache for our friends. A week ago, they lost their beautiful, oh-so happy little boy in the most tragic of circumstances. He was going to be seven this summer. As I am writing this, my mind still doesn’t want to believe that this is happening to them.Them, one of the nicest, most amazing family I know. Life can sometimes be so unfair. There are no words, just tears. Oh I wish I could take all of their pain away. I wish I had the power to turn back time. I wish so many things….but I can’t do any of that.

All I can really do is to give them is our love and support. Despite this tragedy, I believe with all my heart that life can be beautiful for them again, I know they will find the strength to rebuild themselves because they are so amazing and strong. As their friend Z wrote so beautifully at the memorial last week, “The most beautiful stories always have a tragic twist. The most beautiful story also have no beginning and no end.” How I loved her words.

But right now, all we can really do is to let the tears water our souls.

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6 Responses to “Sadness”
  1. jo says:

    So sorry to hear this sad news.
    I know how difficult it is to lose a loved one, but cannot comprehend what it must be like to lose a child.
    My thought are with your friends and their family, and of course anyone else effected.
    x x x

    • audrey says:

      Thank you so much, Jo. It is really hard to comprehend. He was such a happy, smiling, imaginative little boy and the best we can do is to live our lives the way he would have – filled with joy and new dreams. xxxxx

  2. Ju says:

    I feel for you and for your friends…
    I lost my little sister unexpectedly 10 years ago. She was 20. Of course she was amazing, the funniest person I knew. I remember that one of my first thoughts was that she wasn’t responsible for what happened, that there was nothing to be mad at; that because she now couldn’t live her life anymore, the one and only thing I could actually do was to live my life 200%, to take her part with me, to honor her memory, if that makes sense. Also, I promised myself never to be sad when thinking of her. Because she was such a happy person. She wouldn’t have wanted me to be sad. 10 years later, I can tell I’m happy. She’s my little star. Of course it sucks that she’ll never get to meet her nieces and nephews, of course it’s sometimes hard as hell. But on the whole, she’s become part of me, she lives through me and through all the people who had the chance to know her.
    These persons who leave (far far) too early stay with us for ever more than anyone will ever know. Of course, laughing about what they were, talking lightly about them can seem hard, but it is, to me, so important to do so. Sadness shouldn’t be the only thing. Let’s focus on what we can remember of them, on what they gave to us, it’s the best way to honor their memory. I feel so lucky I can talk about my sister with anyone who knew her without any ‘taboo’. All we were lucky to live with our lost ones is TRUE and cannot disappear.
    I’m sorry for such a random comment. I’d like to be more… whatever. I guess you know what I mean.
    All my thoughts to your friends and your family.

    • audrey says:

      Oh Ju – I had no idea something like this happened to you and your family. So sorry to hear about this. I can’t even imagine. Loved every single thing that you wrote, you are so right, the only thing we can do to honor their lives is to live 200% for them, live life as they would have and more. Your comment was not random at all….but yes, I know the feeling. I think it’s because when something like this happens words will always feel empty. Feels the same for me….But the words are so so much, they stick around and resonate. I wanted to ask you, is there anything in the first few months after it happened that helped you cope you it when it was the hardest? OR was it just thinking about celebrating her life? xxxx

  3. Danielle says:

    I am so sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to your friends and you during this difficult time. I’ll keep the family in my thoughts and prayers.